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A sad true mom story
some people wonder why i dont talk about my mother its not that i dont love her, its just that i dont see her i havent for a month or so....she's in a faraway place but she's very happy there, she doesnt tell me but i know she is i miss her so much, i think about her whenever i laugh smile anything she had cancer....she didnt feel any pain, that i know of i visted her everyday after school and i didnt tell anyone i didnt want people feeling bad for me...saying they're sorry for my loss i felt so bad after i screamed at her she used to call me every night, her being deaf she cant really hear what im saying so i have to repeat myself sometimes and i get agitated and i yell at her and i can hear her soft cry over the phone when she's trying to hold it in when we were together i always said to her, "You'll the only thing keeping me alive." and i meant it, but sometimes it feels like i didnt i made her cry multiple times when i should of reached out and gave her a hug the last visit, i will never forget i spent time in her room for hours doing my homework holding her hand saying how much i love her and not wanting her to die then i said "You'll the only thing keeping me alive." and what she said made me cry, "Don't let me be the only thing keeping you alive." i left awhile later still thinking about what she meant and i realized it while i was in the car, i started crying then i begged my dad to take me back but he knew what happened when i got home i called the hospital to tell her something "Will you tell my mom that i love her, and that i always did and always will.....i dont want her to leave me alone with people i dont even like" "Tell her, that i'm sorry for what i've said and im sorry that i got mad, i dont want her to leave cuz now im sad" she told me news that i could go without hearing "Your mother passed away right after you left." I started crying even harder i hung up the phone and thought to myself, "She kept herself alive to see me one last time, to say goodbye." So now when people ask me about my mother i just say "I havent seen her in awhile, and wish i could everyday. But she's in a better place today." If you love someone then repost this If you dont repost this, then the one you really love, really care about will leave you forever
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